contraction II

There's something in your eyes I so tenderly adore and savor. Yet there is something in you that used to block me from you. I didn't know which feeling belonged to my heart, and which one to my mind, if I can confess. I thought I could have been in love with you, but also that I may never be in love because of the way I cling to myself and hold myself back from feeling things and letting go. I have ignored my resistance, though, while back then I genuinely didn't know how and I didn't know differently. I thought I just needed to analyze all things and know everything before it happened. You taught me how not to do so, were the first cure, and I can give you all my love.